My mom and I went to McDonald's. We sat our stuff down and then she went to the bathroom. I soon followed after her. When I got in the bathroom I heard her crying in one of the stalls. After peeking under the stalls I found out she was sitting oddly on the toilet; she was facing the tank part, I think, and laying her head on it like a table while she cried. For some reason, I got the distinct impression that she had been attacked by some kind of monster in the bathroom. I put my coat down called out to her. She opened the stall and I said, "Lets get out of here," So we left, but I had to go back into the bathroom to get her purse and my coat. First I got her purse off of a table near the door. Then I got my coat off of the sink where I had put it. I dashed out before the door could close (I didn't want to be attacked by the monster, after all!). When I got back out there, I took a coat down from this coat rack. Apparently we had brought hangers with us to McDonalds XD. So I was telling her how the hangers with the tags were not ours. I woke up as she was trying to gather our hangers.
Decoded-
I'm overwhelmed by some decisions I have to make in my life.
The nurturing part of myself has a bad side that really upsets me, and I feel unable to let go of these emotions.
I want to get away and i do this by isolating myself from people and running away from situations. But I have to forget about that for now, while I take care of these emotions I'm unable to let go of.
After those emotions are taken care of, I can go back to my secret thoughts and desires and wanting to get away.
Even after I get the hang of things with these difficult decisions in my life, I may expose certain private matters through carelessness. Or my own private matters may be exposed.
I may be getting married soon..... I love that guy so much, but there's so much to think about. How do I tell this to my mom? She wouldn't be worried about the marriage part so much as the part about me leaving her to live with my husband. She's quite clingy, after all, and definitely won't approve of the way we will go about getting married.
I'd really just like to run away from everything and everyone. But I know I can't do that.
The nurturing part of me probably represents me while I'm at work, dealing with children.... I don't really know what to make of this part of the dream yet, but I know there's something I need to do. Some problem I need to solve.
I may get the hang of marriage, but there are certain private matters that may be exposed. For myself it would be how I feel too much like a fangirl to be married. I can't let go of my fangirliness of anime characters and I'm worried that my boyfriend won't understand and will just get mad at me.....
Alternatively it may be talking about how even if I get the hang of tutoring and nurturing, private matters within my students lives will be revealed due to my own thoughtlessness.
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